Friday, February 13, 2009

Rosey Outlook


Friday 5 for February 13: Seven Days

1. This past week, were you more predator or prey?
I would have to say prey for the most part. I felt like I had the big ass target on my back that says SPEW your stress upon me.

2. Which Beatles song title could best be the title of your week?
"All Things Must Pass"

3. “Roses are red / Violets are blue / ___________ / __________.” How would you complete this poem so that it described this past week?
Roses are red, Violets are blue, I'm getting tired of this shit, How about you?

4. How many pieces of unopened mail are sitting wherever you put your unopened mail?
Two magazines which ironically are wrapped - The Advocate and a catalogue for JT Stockroom.

5. What was the best meal of the past seven days?
I had dinner with my neighbors this week. She made fiery lamb vindaloo, basmati rice and I brought naam bread, fresh green beans and a bottle of red wine. It was my first time having lamb and the dish was very tasty. Close second was the fresh oysters I grilled and chased with a smoky porter.


Yes it has been one of those weeks. Actually it has been one of those months. I have had a fair amount of stress going on. Now I honestly don't mind a certain amount of stress, particularly if it comes from my own doing. But I learned a long time ago to quit doing that shit. Who needs it? Unfortunately not everyone else around me is on board with that philosophy. My son has been out of work for about a month. They didn't get the bid they were hoping for so now they are scrambling. Meanwhile he is broke and wondering how the hell he is going to pay next month's rent. He really has worked hard at being responsible, paying his bills all on time, etc. So he is worried and rightfully so considering the economy right now. We talked about working on his resume, applying at the naval shipyard and also contacting his old employer to see if he would give him a reference. His old employer fortunately has some painting that needs to be done so it looks like he might scape by again. I am glad he doesn't have a shitload of bills. Unlike his sister.

I got a phone call this week from the University where I am involved with a research study for a rheumatoid arthritis drug. This drug is currently sitting on the FDA desk, waiting for approval. It has been approved 5 years ago in Japan and just got approval in Europe. The doctors figure that it will get approval this year. Now this is great news for folks because it is a great drug and works in a different mechanism than any of the current drugs on the market. More importantly, it is working for me which is great. I have been resistant to all of the other drugs and honestly I can't afford the cost of the newer drugs. It usually comes down to do I want to pay rent or do I want the drug? So a couple months ago when I got word about the impending approval, I was worried about the cost factor. New drugs are horribly cost prohibitive, ie $1500 - 3000 per month. It wouldn't be the first time I have had to switch into another research study because of the money issue. But I was told that the drug company was going to honor the contract we signed and I would be able to get the drug for free which means I have a year and a half before I have to figure out what to do. The drug company coughed up extra money for the University to continue to do the study. Fast forward to the phone call this week. I was informed that the University is shutting down ALL of the research due to the cost factor. I was told that it was just too expensive to run the studies thru the hospital. Evidently there is a private company who is also doing the study and I will now be going through them. I just don't know if I am getting the same deal as I was promised through the hospital. So for now, I will just have to hang tight and ironically pray that the FDA sits on the drug for awhile. I kinda like being able to walk for miles, to be able to get myself dressed, and basically be functional!

And of course, there is the neverending saga with my daughter. She is now 32 weeks pregnant and so far things look fine with the baby. She has started her intensive outpatient alcohol treatment for the dui deferred prosecution. I am not sure how much she is getting out of it considering she is living with someone who abuses pain meds and honestly if she wasn't pregnant, I am pretty sure she would be using right along with him. Her job ended so she is collecting unemployment. Her husband had back surgery which he was convinced that it would "fix" him and he would get off pain meds by the time the baby was born. What a joke. He was referred to a chronic pain specialist which sounded hopeful - until he resisted all the treatment plans. Everything they tried prescribing him, he decided that it worked and then within 24 hours it suddenly didn't. Anything long acting he refuses to take. He just wants the short acting oxycontin type drugs because afterall, he can get high of them. Add that to the tranquilizers and muscle relaxants. Now he just got fired - supposedly let go due to budget cuts. So here they sit - neither employed. Can't pay rent on time as usual. Can't afford to take a birthing class but he wants to take his last paycheck to buy a gaming system. Sounds like a brilliant plan when your baby is coming in 2 months! So every day I am greeted with a 6am text message from my daughter - venting, moaning, whining, ranting and by the end of the day, those rose colored glasses are firmly planted back on her face. I wonder if they sell rose colored glasses in bulk quantities?

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Strange Overtones

I know it has been over a month since I have posted. I have been in my head more than normal. Too much stress and not wanting to express it online. Personally I can only handle a certain amount of bitching/moaning/whining before I want to reach out and smack the shit out of someone. So I most certainly don't want to be that person who does it online over and over. More to come later. Meanwhile, yes - a tune I have been hooked into because well I love my music.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Ghost Dog - The Game of Finding Abe


Abe and I have continued our daily walks, hitting the beach when the low tide is at a decent hour, ie anytime other than 8am or after 4pm (I need light or I would kill myself on a log). It has been really cold for Washington. We currently are experiencing the longest cold stretch we have seen in over 20 years. It is beautiful at the beach this time of year but COLD, particularly when the wind is blasting across the sound. So I figured we will just dress appropriately for it. And what does the stylish Abe wear? I went searching for a coat that would be big enough for him since he is larger than the standard weimaraner. Dog coats are SPENDY but alas, I found a supplier on Ebay. I got my order in and received it. I put the coat on Abe and off we went. He looked all stylish. People stopped in their cars to comment. We get to the beach and off he goes to play. WHAT WAS I THINKING? Ghost dog in a camouflaged coat. He is the color of the sand and logs. The coat is the color of, oh EVERYTHING on the beach. What is his favorite game? Run ahead, hunker down between logs and SURPRISE attack! I could have gotten him the pink one but well he might have gotten grief by the rest of the dogs on the beach (and the construction guys would have laughed hysterically). Ditto on the purple. My son volunteered to paint ball splatter his coat with orange but wanted to make it more of a game, ie with Abe in it. That got vetoed. So I guess I shall look for another jacket and in the meantime we shall continue our daily version of where's waldo!

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

TMI Tuesday


1. Do you consider sexy underthings a present for you or your partner?
I consider lingerie a gift for the other person although ultimately it does end up to be a gift for me when I see the response to it. So it is a win/win situation!

2. What are 3 characteristics of "your type"? Have you best relationship(s) been with your type or when you have gone against it?

I think the slender to lean athletic body, beautiful eyes, and intelligence. I have gone against the type a few times and they were not my best relationships by any means. When I stick to my type, it really makes for a better relationship (using my current one as the perfect example).

3. What is on your Santa list this year?

Hmmm no real list this year. I always appreciate money for more ink since I would love to be able to get more work done on my sleeve. I have been lusting after a treadmill but haven't told anybody. It would be nice to have it to add extra cardio time to my routine.

4. Generally speaking, who has historically had a higher libido, you or your partner(s)?

Absolutely me - in fact I haven't had any partner whose libido was higher than mine. D's might be close if he didn't have to deal with those real life issues, such as work, body not always wanting to cooperate, etc.

5. The unsculptured female bush seems to have passed from fashion. What about men, do you think they need to trim and shave "down there"?

Oh hell yes, manscaping is necessary. Nothing is more rude than picking a hair out of your throat. Shaved is even better but it has to be done regularly.

Bonus (as in optional):What are a few of your favorite things (both sexual non-sexual)?

A properly brewed espresso in the morning
Walking along the beach - feeling the wind and hearing the waves crash.
Abe hopping in bed with us and snuggling.
Walking with my ipod - lately the music has been great for clearing out any stress on the brain.
Cooking for my family and friends.
Sexually - pretty much everything D and I do is a favorite. Strap on play, canes, crops, candle wax, etc...

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

"Prop 8 - The Musical"

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